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“My doubt and confidence feel out of balance. Is effort required of me here?”
I find myself in this conundrum often. Yet: I’m still detoxing and a part of the technocratic system. For now, I still eat meat, I still experience lust (even if I’m consciously acting on it less and less), I still am exposed to wifi and screen time. I still have bills to pay and have to drive my car to the store so I can feed my child and I. I still feel so much emotional pain from how backwards society is that I often feel debilitated in my daily efforts of raising him. All these things interfere with my clarity… so yes, effort is required on my part to help clear out the things that feed my doubt. But that takes time! And consciousness! And patience! And trust in the process and long-term vision.
It’s only very seldom that I experience the bliss of merging with the dream of the Divine, because I am still encumbered by what’s laughably called “real life.” I hold tight to the objective, but that doesn’t always take away from the present moment’s discomfort, or even downright pain. I believe confidence unfolds, however, when we behold the truth of the energy of Love. It grows more and more, the more we align with natural law. We are already on the way and we are already loved HERE and NOW, no matter how battered and bruised we are. I think that Love can hold us all the way there, no matter how much time it takes to arrive.
